I read this quote on Facebook: "What matters is the nature of the sufferer, not the nature of the sufferings. Stir a cesspool and a foul stench arises. Stir a perfume and a delightful fragrance ascends. But the movement is identical." Augustine – The City of God
Wow.
Do you get it? It's all about attitude and let me tell you, mine stinks. I'm stirring a cesspool most days. Sure, I'm not happy Anna has autism and uncontrolled seizures. I'm tired. And I’m tired of being tired. I hate feeling oppressed by the situation. I try to look for blessings, but I often fall short of seeing them.
It isn't all bad, you know. Anna is loving and sweet. She loves unconditionally. And because of her, I'm able to stay home and work on my writing and editing. It's rather nice not to have to venture out into the world to work.
And it's not the big things that get me. It's the little ones. I have a small bookmark that says:
"Tis the little things that bug us
And tend to hold us back.
We can sit upon a mountain
But not upon a tack.
So true! I know this and I still let things get to me. What can I do about this? I'm going to work harder to see the blessings I have. And I'm going to try to get more rest so I can bear the burdens better. I don't want to stir the cesspool anymore. Who's with me?
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