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Why Me?
Thursday, September 20, 2012 by pam

Why did God choose me to be Anna's mommy? I often ask that question. And I can almost hear God's response, "Why NOT you?" See, God knows what I need to strengthen my faith. He knew it when I was in high school and prayed, "Please, God, don't ever let me have a child with autism." This was after I had watched a TV movie about a family with a son who had severe autism. I imagine God chuckled. He knew what He was planning.

Why me? Because I'm selfish, impatient and discontented. Anna rubs off these rough edges and more. Anna is 21 years old, but she still functions at about 18 months. We all are familiar with the terrible twos and the toddler phase. It takes patience when she dumps her bowl of dry Cheerios EVERY SINGLE MORNING. She just did it a minute ago. It took patience to potty train for 6 years. It takes patience to clean up her accidents. I have to take the focus off myself to attend to her many needs. And I need contentment to accept my lot and keep going.

Why me? Because God loves me so much, He won't let me remain selfish, impatient and discontented. So, He gave me Anna. I have to remembe this when I am positive I'm being punished. We can't build muscles without lifting weights, right? And lifting weights is not easy. Not if we want strong muscles.

Why me? It was a personal choice. God knew what would work best to shine me up. And because of this, I can be here to encourage you. I can't change it, so I'm choosing to do something positive with it. As my sister likes to say, "It is what it is." This is what I have. I can't change it, so I have to go with it.

What are your "why me?" thoughts?


Comments

pam From At 9/24/2012 7:41:58 AM

Stephenie mentioned ""worse situations."" Are there really ""worse"" situations? I wonder. Because I've looked at others and said, ""I couldn't do what you do."" And they've looked right back at me and said the same thing. God really does hand pick our difficulties. We can't compare ourselves to others.

Carolyn Ruch From Hatfield, Pa At 9/24/2012 6:53:09 AM

When Ken and I discussed adoption and what kind of ""special needs"" we could handle, we both agreed that mentally challenged was NOT what we could handle. God chuckled then too. :)

Julie Monzi From Gettysburg, PA At 9/24/2012 6:47:47 AM

I think you and I saw the same movie!!!

Stephenie From Green Bay, WI At 9/24/2012 6:46:23 AM

Wow! I don't know what I'd do with that kind of patience test. I've had some things happen where I thought ""Why me?"" But, a friend (in worse situations) said ""Why not?"" She thought God must have chosen her for a special reason. Not easy to feel ""special"" is it?

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